Ask me what 2021 was for me, chances are that I would give you a couple of weird stories, hell it would sound like a toddler making up a story, and yes before you ask basically my year was like a toddler’s made up story.
I am not going to bore you with detail, or I might just do that, cause a lot of things happened and excuse my French but this blog post is gonna be so raw that there will be a shit ton of vulgar language starting a few words ago.
So 2021 huh, 2021 was the year I loved and left, the year I saw me break and built, the year I saw myself free and I saw Mercy (me of course) heal-ish.
This year or last year if you are reading this in 2022 started off funny you know, it started with bad vibes that lasted for quite some time.
Like these bad vibes put me into a phase where I felt like I, lost interest in everything I enjoyed doing like talking to people, I did however develop love for multiple meltdowns almost everyday.
I was in such a dark phase that it somewhat scared the ones around me that I might turn to suicide, but fortunately I was not that deep deep deep deep into it I guess.
That same year I saw Mercy grow, and actually realizing that she gives more and gets less than she deserves which Zoe (my imaginary friend) would say is completely fucked up.
I mean I always thought I was the most childish person and immature because of how I behave but I did not really take a closer look at the way I think, they way I respond to things or the way I deal with shit cause the time I found out that I am actually the most matured childish person I know I was shocked but I loved it.
This year (2021) also reminded me that I am that grudgy vindictive bitch of all times, and I know it’s fucked up but I feel like those two toxic traits of mine are quite selective.
I only get to be that bitch depending on just how dirty you have done me, I cannot just to be a bitch because I can or I choose to be a bitch because of what you have done to me.
What you do to me must be deep so that I get to be that bitch to you or otherwise I will treat you like an ordinary annoying human you think you are.
In the same year I saw me get really better at my job, never in my wildest dreams have I ever thought that I could be doing really good in a short amount time but here we are, making or writing headlines left, right , centre.
I have loved a few and definitely lost but not all of them cause I can’t be that bad of a person that will lose everyone in her life at once, oh come on.
This year I met new people, that I am grateful I have met this year, they are amazing people that love my energy and I also love their energy cause we cool like that, take me back to 2015 Facebook captions.
If this year has taught me something ne, is that feel whatever the fuck you want to feel they are your emotions and no Daren you cannot tell me how to feel. I remember people telling me to stop feeling depressed like what the fuck if I stop feeling depressed where on earth do I dump all this shit ton of emotions I am feeling. Or how the fuck will I turn off my depression like its a stupid light switch.
Never tell people how to feel, instead be there for them and do not be there for them in a PR stunt where you are only there to be seen or be remembered as you were there but actually never gave a shit, be there for people emotionally just not physically or hell visually if that’s a thing.
Let people that are going through a rough patch to feel like what they feel and remind them it is okay to feel that way but it can take a twisted turn if they do not channel their emotions well and we do not want that, now do we?
I doubt , so that was how my year in a nutshell was plus I lost my focus cause I am mad at this nigga, he is not answering my calls and I miss his ass. But hey do comment down below what your 2021 was like in one word or line whichever one helps you describe they year the best way you can.